cos of the tarot cards you wanted to let go . its okae . i dont like you anyway . i dont even noe how i became a part of your life . im afraid of being ur friend . cos i noe that ur feelings for me will grow . i dont wanna be ur special fren anymore . its pressurising . im already stressed with schoolwork . i cant catch up . i dont understand anything at all . and you say that i changed cos i kept studying ? is studying a wrong ? i just wanna get good grades and score well . all these are driving me nuts . i just wanna kill myself on the spot right now or maybe just jump down off the building . i dunno why you love me so much . its not as if we wil be together till we die . my 16 cuts were nothing . my cries were nothing too . i just dunno what's going thru ur mind . i noe you love me but i dont . im straight . i noe that u're crying over the fone . i knew but i just didnt show . you told me over the fone that after thursday , it will be the last time we will be meeting each other . you told me over the fone to not get you ur birthday present anymore . so its something like letting me go . just do it okae ? ease me from the pain . it will hurt you but i dont wanna drag this any longer . i wont miss you . i wont think about anything anymore . i just wanna continue life without ever knowing anything like this has happened . i just wanna press the rewind button and think again whether i should press on to ur profile or not . if i didnt , none of this would have happened . i wont be taking ur calls till this thursday . dont call my hse .im really starting to get irritated by it , really . just set me free on thursday . let me be happy , erase me from ur memories , brainwash yourself . the longer we stay in contact or know each other , the more pain we will have to face . just do anything that can allow you to forget me , once and for all ..
